The Blog of Sinead Stewart

Can't Sleep...Time Waster...

Tue, 13 May 2008 05:47:06 GMT

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
Long story short...I was born a sick baby and have some crazy ass scars. You get to know me, you know the details.

2. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
Balckberry, World Edition

3. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
Punk, Electronic, Rock and a lil pop

4. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
10:45 either in the morning or at night...

5. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Truth

6. WHAT DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Wow, I don't know.

7. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
Tattoos, Friends, (and as lame as it sounds) laptop (it just holds so many memories)

8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
My perfume

9. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Only when close talkers are around

10. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
If I'm in a haunted house

11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME TO WEAR?
Deep Blue

12. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Long, "hockey hair", side sweep bangs...(ew, no not "emo" bangs)

13. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
In bed

14. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
energy drinks...rock star and super size red bull

15. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
cheese and garlic dipping sauce

16. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
cupcakes

17. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
some random drunk dude at the bar who was wearing sunglasses at 11pm. Ass.

18. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
Yes, Sineads shinary

19. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)?
A dolphin ring...so 90s

20. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
Falling in love is random

21. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Having wicked awesome sex

22. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
1

23. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
BRUNETTES

24. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
my voice mail

25. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
People who have dirty toots in public, and rude drunk guys

26. HAS ANYONE EVER SPIT ON YOU?
No, 'cuz I would ruin what ever the hell they were wearing

27. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Trusting too much

28. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST JOB?
McDicks

29. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Yes!

30. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
Drinking with my co-workers at a sweet pub, meeting british people and telling them a Spliff is another word for a girly fart

31. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Breast implants...when I'm much older...

32. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
I can't sleep...bad dreams :( I should stop watching Dexter so late...

33. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Smile, Hair...Tattoos?

34. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
Drink it in a McDonalds cup

35. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
More then a millions dollars

36. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
1 boy

37. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Sinead O'Connor ;)

38. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
Only the brightest

39. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
Thumbs Up

40. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
Sunday

41. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Sometimes

42. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
NONE!

43. ANY BAD HABITS?
Spending money I don't have...

44. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD YOU OWN?
Dance Mix 95

45. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
FOR SURE!

46. DO LOOKS MATTER?
When is comes to food, fuck yes.

47. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
Tooting. hahahahah

48. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
In bed

49. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
Too much

50. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Stuffed toy Mini Mouse

51. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
NO, NEVER! (sarcasm)

52. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
You don't wanna meet me in a mosh pit...I will rip your hair out.

53. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Twig, berries, and some talent with a bit of good humour

54. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Sinbad, Kool Aid, Silly,

55. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
No

56. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
All of them...together...as one.

57. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
Purple and Black

58. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
I don't have them anymore

59. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
A few people...

60. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Only some people

61. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Conan O'Brien

62. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Garlic Bread

63. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Shannon

64. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE PREFERRED SEX?
Eyes and Smile (at the same time!)

65. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Edmonton

66. SCARIEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO YOU?
I have a few things...

67. FAVORITE DRINK?
Ice Water or a Guiness

68. FAVORITE JOKE?
There are quite a few..but this one time an Irish man walks into a bar...

69. FAVORITE SPORT?
Hockey and Soccer

70. YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Purple and Dark Brown

71. YOUR EYE COLOR?
Green

72. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
Sometimes...when I feel like seeing

73. SIBLINGS?
Younger brother

74. FAVORITE MONTH?
July

75. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
SPICY TUNA OWNS MY LIFE

76. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
Conan O'Brien

77. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR
July 3rd

78. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
Yes.

79.SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer

80. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Being in love.

81. WHO DO YOU SECRETLY LOVE?
Secretly love what? I love a lot of things and people...

82. FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT?
Regret - Cancer Bats

83. LAKE OR OCEAN?
Ocean

84. BIGGEST TURNOFF?
Arrogance and Liars

85. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND:
2 days ago?

87. LAST TEXT YOU RECIEVED:
Doob?

88. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH:
Yes!

89. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW:
Yes...

90. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME:
Minion

91. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENTED/ ARE ATTENDING:
I attended Assumption...or AssCumption

92. WHERE ARE YOU NOW:
Watching TV in the TV room...can't sleep :(

93. ARE YOU SMILING:
Too Tired

94. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING:
PJs

95. ARE YOU IN LOVE:
with people and things...

96. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE:
Almost Famous

97. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG:
Bleeder - Alkaline Trio (acoustic version)

98. WHEN WAS YOUR LAST RELATIONSHIP:
I am in tons of different relationships...

99. EVER GONE CRAZY?
Who hasn't?

100. PLAN ON GETTING DRUNK SOON:
I am kinda drunk right now....

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It is almost 2am. I am awake. I don't have any make up on. I'm ready to pass out. I want to fall asleep in a nook...a specific nook, one with a heart.

xo

Life is Good.

Sat, 10 May 2008 19:46:02 GMT

Great things are moving and shaking.

Meeting new friends is the best.

Being positive about EVERYTHING.

Tattooing myself again this week.

Learning something new everyday.

Reading more then I have before.

Drawing and creating for future projects.

Writing To Do Lists and completing them.

Seeing the best in everyone.

Loving the life I live.

Living the life I love.

xo

My Poor Baby!

Thu, 08 May 2008 17:02:25 GMT

So for the last week or so my dog, Bailey, has been winking at me none stop.

I don't know what came over him, but I guess I was looking damn good with my new hair color, or something.

I was worried at this point though, its not like him to be so forward...

hahahah, okay I'll stop.

So I took him to the Vet. It turns out that he has a huge gash in his eye! About 5 millimeter cut, its HUGE!

I saw the cut when she put yellow dye in his eyes, turned off the lights and pointed a blue light in them to see the damage. My poor puppy, he was so uncomfortable.

He is now wearing a cone and can't walk anywhere. Its so sad and kinda funny. He will walk and then bang into something then stop wondering why he isn't moving. The cone is also see through, so when he goes to get food or something off the ground, he looks so ridiculous.

It sucks having to put the drops and cream in his eye too. When I watched the vet do it she made it look so simple, but now he can barely even open his eye open wide enough to even get the drops in. My heart breaks.

So we have to do this until tomorrow, and then I have to take him back right away to see if anything has healed...and if not...he has to have eye surgery!!!

Like I said..my...heart..is..breaking. K, a little over dramatic but he's 13, my old man and in pain :(

Look at just how big and adorable he is!

LOOK AT THAT FACE!

xo

Nice Guys Finish Last

Wed, 07 May 2008 15:17:43 GMT

I'm thinking that me being so "nice" has turned into a bad thing.

This personality trait has lead me to become tired of giving. Tired of trying to be peoples friends, when in turn they just talk mad shit. I'm tired of doing nice things for people because it never seems to be appreciated. Niceness almost seems pathetic at this point.

Being nice has gotten me places and I won't give it up. But I have learned that being too nice will only lead to people walking all over you and thinking that you're always a Yes Person. I have to learn to say NO.

There are many people who need to learn this lesson. You can't accomplish anything you want, if you're always out there to make everyone else happy.

This is even true for guys. There are so many nice guys out there that aren't getting their leading lady because they aren't "jerks". Why do chicks dig jerks? Because we want something bad, just like chocolate.

I have dated jerks and they are jerks 'cuz they are either two extremes, insecure or full of themselves. Both turn offs, but hey, if they are douche bags we kinda like them.

Why?
I don't fucking know.

**Plz note this isn't the case for some girls. BUT most girls love jerks 'cuz they have some drama to bitch about to their friends.

My advice to you nice guys is be a good dude, not a shitty dude but don't let some hoe take advantage of your kindness.

For the jerks out there, stop being so shitty and get over yourself.

So MY verdict is: I will always be a nice/kind person and be the friendly out going babe I am, until niceness starts walking all over me.

xo

First Blog of May...

Sat, 03 May 2008 19:22:04 GMT

My life is a jar of cherries.

Two months until my birthday! I am planning something epic. It involves Toronto, a hotel, getting dolled up and drinking JagerBombs like its going out of style.

On Monday for my radio show I am interviewing someone amazing. He's a member of Bad Religion who has started up a new band...you will have to tune in to know who I am talking about. Yes, I'm very sneaky.

I could blog about a bunch of stuff but I will be covering it on my radio show so make sure you tune in: www.PunkRadioCast.com on Monday at 1:00pm EST.

Do it.

I will leave you with one awesome ad. Makes me want to buy a chocolate bar..therefore a job well done...hahaha.

Hope your having a great weekend!

xo

Bleeder

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 19:19:26 GMT

By Alkaline trio

you came to me like a dream, the kind that always leaves.
Just as the best part starts, it ends so abruptly.
And leaves you stunned and naked in your bedroom all alone.
It’s kinda funny how something so soothing gets interrupted by the ring of a telephone.
And you broke me like the cigarette that I busted on the day I quit.
But now that I've been drinking, I'm outta smokes and I wish that I had it.
Woke up to my daily headache and the realization that you are gone.
Oh my sweet darling happiness you've been away from me all along.
One thing that I've never said, I'm truly happy in my heart and in my head.
A lonely liver suspended in liquid.
You came to me like a dream, the kind that always leaves.
Just as the best part starts, it ends so abruptly.
And leaves you stunned and naked in your bedroom all alone.
It’s kinda funny how something so soothing gets interrupted by the ring of a telephone.
One thing that I've never said, I'm truly happy in my heart and in my head.
A lonely liver suspended in liquid.
Its one thing that I never did was smile.
Missing a case, lacking a lid.
My heart bleeds for what you never did...
You never did.
For what you never did...
Never did.
For what you never did...
Never did...
Never did...
Never did...
You never did...
You never did...
It’s one thing that I've never said, I'm truly happy in my heart and in my head.
A lonely liver suspended in liquid.
Its one thing that I never did was smile.
Missing a case, lacking a lid.
My heart bled for what you never did until now.

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Favorite lines:
And you broke me like the cigarette that I busted on the day I quit.
But now that I've been drinking, I'm outta smokes and I wish that I had it.

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I don't smoke but I scream those lines every time.

Feels good to scream.

I've been getting random butterflies and it's been awhile since I felt them.

Nice to know they are still alive.

xo

Autobiography...to be continued...

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 21:15:07 GMT

-Prologue-

1. Who took your profile picture?
ZAIDEN...but i always change my profile picture...

2. Exactly what are you wearing right now?
Black leggings and a black tank top...about to head to the pub to work...

3. What is your current problem?
Ummm, in debt?

4. What makes you most happy?
Music, tattooing, walking in the sunshine, being in love and partying with my friends

5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
Night of the Living Living - No Use for a Name
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Chapter 1:

1. Nickname?
Sinbad, Silly, Kool-Aid, Sexy Pants

2. Eye color?
Green

3. Hair color?
Purple, and dark brown with a hint of blonde

4.Height?
5'2ish
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Chapter 2:

1. Do you live with your parent(s)?
yes...but not for long...

2. Do you get along with your parent(s)?
Yes, until they blame me for something my brother did

3. Are your parents chill?
haha, yeah

4. Do you have any Siblings?
Lil Bro Sean
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Chapter 3:
FAVORITE:

1. Ice Cream?
ANY KIND! To be specific....any blizzard from Dairy Queen with extra stuff.

2. Season?
Summer

3. Book?
Catcher in the Rye

4. Band?
ohh common...thats like picking the favorite child! okay..ummm...i give up

5. Food?
Sushi (dragon roll and spicy salmon), cupcakes and chips and salsa

6. Drink(s)?
Ceaser or a pint of Guiness

9. Pen color?
Dark Purple/Black

10. Store?
D-tox or anything couture that i can't afford but like to look at

11. Person?
My bestest friends
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Chapter 4:
DO YOU

1.Write on your hand:
All the time

2. Call people back?
Yes, even numbers I don't know...hahaha

3. Believe in love?
Yes

4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
Where ever my nook is
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Chapter 5: HAVE Y0U?

1. Kissed Someone in the past 24 hours?
No :(

2. If so...where?
n/a

3. Had PHYSICAL therapy?
No...hopefully never!

4. Gotten surgery?
Yes...a few times

5. Taken painkillers.
Yes. Wisdom teeth were brutal!

6. Overdosed on pain killers?
Maybe...but I don't remember

7. Been stung by a bee?
When I was a kid, I thought I was gunna die!

8. Threw up in a doctors office:
HAHAH YES! I got blood taken (something I cannot seem to stomach) I walked out into the waiting room and passed out...(my brother caught me) and then when I came to, I puked all over the ground...it was so embarrassing.
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Chapter 6:
Who/what was the last:

2. Person to text you?
Mikey

3. Thing you touched?
The keyboard...before that...chips and salsa...yummy

5. Thing you said?
thats was so tastyyyy

7. Person you hugged?
Mom

8. Person you talked to on the phone?
Mikey

11. Last book you read?
A New Earth

12. Last time you cleaned your room?
Yesterday...spotless :)

13. Last time you talked to someone you liked?
Two seconds ago
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Chapter 7:

1. What's the most exciting /interesting thing that happened to you today?
I went shopping for a new bike
I slept in cuz i drank a lot last night...so my day has been cut short...and now I go to work

2. How many best friends do you have?
A bunch! I'm gunna say a good 7 of them, I could count on, but 3 of them own my soul

3. Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
Sleep in beside love

4.Who do you love?
I love a lot of people

5. What would you change about your life right now?
I wish I were more motivated to work out and (like anyone) I wish I had more money

6. Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
Cry over the truth...lies are for liars..and liars are scum

7. whats on your bedroom floor?
about 5 pairs of shoes...tattoo gear...box of memories...and I'm actually sitting on my floor

8. Who was the last person you got into an argument with?
My dad
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Chapter 8:

11. Do you trust people easily?
No. I am very friendly and try and get to know the person first, then make my choice based on their personality

12. If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move to?
Australia

13. Do you think you're good looking?
Yeah...is that a bad thing? I could def use some abs though!

14.Could you go a day without eating?
NO!

15. How much do looks matter to you?
HONESTLY: yes. You have to attracted to someone first and then get to know them. I would never date a meat head that was hot but had no personality. Looks wise, I am a sucker for a sweet smile, deep eyes and nice hair. Personality wise: Witty, smart, passionate and loyal.

16. How do you feel about P.D.A.?
If I see open mouth I wanna gag and mucho ass grabbing isn't cool either

17. When was the last time you had your hair cut?
More then 8 months ago...I'm broke, my hair is dead...but oh so long!

18. Would you rather be mad or sad?
Mad....cuz then I will do something about my anger that makes it productive

19. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Yes and No. All depends on the situation, I cried over an Intervention episode though.

20. What's the worst car accident you've ever been in?
I wasn't in it...my car was :(

21. Are you tight with your mommy?
Hells yes, but we annoy each other

23. Do you tell your parents everything?
No. Thats why I have BFFs

24. Would you rather be a bird or a fish?
Fish, the ocean amazes me....there is no cool shit up in the sky

25. Name one fear you have.
I am terrified of passing away too young and not doing everything on my to do list

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Chapter 9:

26. If you need to go to the store a block away, do you walk or drive?
Walk but soon bike!

27.Does the thought of marriage scare you?
No...it kinda makes me happy

28. How many kids do you want?
1 little boy and a ton of pets

29. What's your favorite color to wear?
Black. Its just so slimming!

30. Who was the last person in your bedroom besides you?
Bailey, my dog :)

31. What are you doing today?
Working in about an hour

34. What would you do if you found a dinosaur egg?
Eat it. Nope, just kidding. I would hatch it and call it my own

35. Do you get bored easily?
I don't let myself. What is the saying? idle hands are the devils advocate?

36. What's something that someone can do that really bothers you?
Lie or lying with omission. Also, butting in line. Don't butt in line before me or I will tear you down. Wonderland is the worst for that!

37. Did you ever want to change your name when you were younger?
Never. I actually never liked meeting other Sineads cuz I wanted to be the only one

38. Do you wish you were famous?
I know I will be...I just gotta keep working at what I'm doing and be successful

39. What do you do to your eyebrows?
I arch them

41. Who's the last text message you received from?
Didn't I already answer this? Mikey <3

42. How do you like your steak cooked?
I don't eat meat...gross!

43. What's your favorite song at the moment?
Turkish Disco by Fugazi

45. Can music affect your mood?
Yes
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Chapter 10:

46. What piercings do you want?
I've done them all...and I mean all.

47. What tattoos do you want?
I want to finish my sleeve and then get one of my favorite paintings done on my back, and then a mermaid coming out of the waves on my foot...that should be all...for now. haha

48. Have you ever been in a cave?
Well it was a fake one at the science center

49. Have you ever eaten a bug?
TEQUILLA WORM!

50. Do you think there's someone for everyone?
Yes. My grandparents and my parents are still together and if they can make it work, so can anyone. I think there is a few people out there who are THE ONE for you, but its all about how much of a connection you have with them that will determine whether or not you stick together.

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Well that wasted the perfect amount of time before I have to head to work. Sweet.

xo

Happy Earth Day.

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 02:40:10 GMT

The Three R's
by Jack Johnson

bringing it to you LIVE.

You heard the man.

xo

Fugazi

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 02:54:24 GMT

I feel like I was there.

A New Mindset...Good bye Ego.

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 21:16:47 GMT

Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness.

I am the awareness that is aware that there is attachment.

When you are aware that you are thinking that awareness is not apart of thinking. It is a different dimension of consciousness.

And it is the awareness that says "I am".

Non-reaction to the ego in others is one of the most effective ways not only of going beyond ego in yourself but also dissolving the collective human ego.

The past has no power to stop you from being present now. Only grievance about the past can do that. And what is grievance? The baggage of old thought and emotion.

**Those words were taken from Eckhart Tolles book, A New Earth.

I highly recommend it.

I am only on chapter three and I am seeing things in a new light. I will keep you updated on my favorite points.

Its deep.

xo

Over It.

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 14:35:44 GMT

All I normally need to get over something negative is a good night sleep.

I know it sounds cheesy but right now I am trying to look at the positive about all of this.

So I'm taking the cheque and paying off my credit card.

I'm going to take the bus for a bit (ouch) but that will at least it will help save the earth.

I am saving up to buy a sweet bike and get in shape by biking to both my jobs.

Oh life, how you like to mess up my plans.

Fuck, maybe I can find something on auto trader.

I think I need another good night sleep.

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Thanks to all my friends who have said nice things or have taken me out for Dairy Queen. Means a lot to have your awesome support. (Tin Roof Blizzard is AMAZING)

xo

p.s should i get a donate button? hahahaha

p.p.s I have been listening to this song on repeat....

MGMT - Time To Pretend

I'm Feelin rough I'm Feelin raw I'm in the prime of my life.
Let's make some music make some money find some models for wives.
I'll move to Paris, shoot some heroin and fuck with the stars.
You man the island and the cocaine and the elegant cars.

This is our decision to live fast and die young.
We've got the vision, now let's have some fun.
Yeah it's overwhelming, but what else can we do?
Get jobs in offices and wake up for the morning commute?

Forget about our mothers and our friends.
We were fated to pretend.

I'll miss the playgrounds and the animals and digging up worms.
I'll miss the comfort of my mother and the weight of the world.
I'll miss my sister, miss my father, miss my dog and my home.
Yeah I'll miss the boredom and the freedom and the time spent alone.

But there is really nothing, nothing we can do.
Love must be forgotten. Life can always start up anew.
The models will have children, we'll get a divorce,
we'll find some more models, Everything must run its course.

We'll choke on our vomit and that will be the end.
We were fated to pretend.

The Verdict.

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 19:13:18 GMT

I am so depressed right now.

In a previous blog I mentioned how some kid crashed into the back of my PARKED car and basically totaled it. Well, I have been trying to be optimistic about it but my positive energy went unused.

Here is the evidence of one dumb ass kid:

I spoke with the insurance company and she's not getting fixed. I am car-less. The money they want to compensate me with is not enough to buy a decent old car.

THIS IS SOOO LAME.

I am so angry. I wrote a nasty letter, that I'm not going to send.

It didn't help, so now I'm writing this blog.

My rental car gets taken away on Tuesday. My last day of freedom. I worked so hard to not use the fucking transit. What am I going to do?

Aww, I just read this thing over for spelling mistakes and now I just wanna cry.

:*(

I know, I gotta suck it up, but right now, let me be miserable.

Bad Back, Good Sex

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 03:28:32 GMT

Side Notes
**
1. That guy in the shower scene, is totally checking out his gay partners chest. Thats a dude, right?
2. Acting rodeo style in the bedroom may increase back pain. Do not use those reins I was thinking about.
3. Spooning can lead to forking.
4. Add pillow or towel to increase stimulation, or to clean up a mess.
5. Also, tell your significant other what gets your fire cracking.
6. AND MOST IMPORTANT! If it hurts, don't do it.

Wow. Thank you early 90's instructional video tape. I hope I remember that important advice when I'm 60 years old and worrying about my back. Hopefully I will still be getting "it", even if it is spooning sideways and hoping my hip doesn't crack.

Time to go to bed, dreaming about old people sex.

p.s

I don't know why I thought this video was soo funny. I think the cartoon at the beginning suckered me in.
They have pubes.

Alternative Fashion Week!

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 18:21:51 GMT

Its all over and done now but it will forever be remembered.

So, this Monday (1:00pm ET) on my radio show I have a full on [FAT] day. I have interviews with bands, designers, artists and the main lady who put this shit on. So make sure you tune in :) www.PunkRadioCast.com

My friend came with me the first day and my mom was my date for the second day. I was so happy my mom came out. She has made me into the fashionista I am today. I know that she was loving every moment of it, even when I was rushing off finding interviews.

The last show, on the second night, ended off in a dance party and the Executive Director, Vanja Vasic, pulled me up on stage to dance. When you get pulled up on stage to dance, you better bust a move! hahahahaa

Seeing as I have so many jobs to keep me busy, I couldn't make it to the last night of the show but, I managed to get a lot of amazing photos from the first two days. All the models looked amazing!

My personal favorite designers:
Starkers Corsetry
InnerGeek
Breeyn McCarney
CMichelon
Love Cliche by Belinda Visag
Babu et Moi

If you want to see the designers links check out www.getfat.ca

**the first photo is my all time favorite**

Amazing. You had to be there.
Can't wait till next year.

xo

The Used

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 14:11:37 GMT

"Tunnel"

I set out alone,
Crawl through the tunnel,
My eyes can hardly see the other side,
No longer cold,
Or feeling in trouble,
I realize that I am just alive....
So let it shine,

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world,
We are the light in the tunnel,
That's all.....

Moving so slow, towards the end of the tunnel
I don't pretend I'll see the other side
I trudge through the mud
I push through the rubble
To realize that I am just alive
So let it shine

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world
We are the light in the tunnel

The world is not leaving us (leave us behind)
But we will be leaving this world
Yeah, the world is not leaving us (leave us behind)
Do we believe in this world?

Cause we are, the light in the tunnel,
We are the living and dying,
See how we are, alone in the world
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....
We are the light in the tunnel
That's all....

Fuck Idols and Enemies.

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 15:15:57 GMT

The truth always comes out, even if it takes awhile.

:)

I have never had an enemy, and then I did, and now, I would like to think I don't. I get anxiety over that shit. My biggest fear was running into them and having to be a bitch, or having them confront me for something I wasn't actually doing.

But they apologized. And it was nice. Some people spend their whole lives wronging others and never apologizing. Saying your sorry is very important for both sides. You should always accept it because you gotta give respect to people who want to make things right again.

I did learn a lot though. I learned that everything I (or anyone) put on the internet gets scrutinized and dissected. People like to think they know you based on profiles and pictures.

My favorite part about this whole thing, was discovering that there are people who feel the need to be famous based on...well...being on the internet too much(?) hahaha. The Jeffree Stars and Audrey who-gives-a-shits are so lame. There are little girls who look up to these people cuz they have nobody to look up to. Where did the mothers go? And where did any sort of idol go?

The only character I ever remembered looking up to and wanting to be like was Cinderella and the Little Mermaid. I felt a connection to them because they both started out in a situation that seemed hopeless, but managed to pull through, and live happily ever after. These new false idols have no happily ever after because their lives seem so shallow and empty. Its high school all over again and they just want to be popular. When I graduated high school, I graduated from the stupid popularity contest and just became myself, which was a breath of fresh air.

Is it not cool to just look up to yourself?

Too many people waste their time googling false idols, when they could be googling ANYTHING else that opens your mind and furthers your life.

**BREATHES IN**

Feels good to lead MY life.

On to the next chapter....

My Own YouTube Videos!

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 20:48:09 GMT

Enjoy some of my old mini videos. As I do not have a reliable camera anymore, I haven't been able to create more for your enjoyment...but don't worry very soon to come ;)

There use to be a crazy bird in our backyard that would follow us where ever we went. SUPER CREEPY!

I speak to the animals.

I will post more videos soon :)

xo

Staying In On A Friday Night...

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 03:48:52 GMT

Yup, thats what I'm doing.

I just finished a crazy shift at the bar. My feet are killing me, no dancing tonight!

Wow, this week has been nuts. Yesterday morning I woke up at 8am to my brother coming into my room and telling me someone "fucked my car up".

GOOD MORNING LIFE!

Anyways, some young kid crashed into the back of my parked car, IDIOT! So my car is basically toast. Its getting fixed right now and I picked up my sweet rental car today...that kinda smells. Thank god it doesn't smell like B.O or I would be put in such a Seinfeld situation. hahahah

So here I am, not going out, cuz it cost money to drive, and I don't have money.

Didn't my car just go through hell the week before? Awww yes. Then I got my baby all fixed up with an oil change, car wash, and basic fix up...and someone had to rape her in the ass. Literally.

ANYWAYS.
This is my luck. This is my life.

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I miss my friends.

I have a lot of amazing friends who I never get to see anymore. Socializing costs money and I am sorry friends but Sinead won't be going out for awhile. :(

I think I should stop talking about $, its so uninteresting.

DONE AND DONE.

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The summer is here soon! I love it! Time to loose the winter weight and get out the short skirts and work it. That 4 month miracle didn't work out the first month, but it was trial and error, and now I realize that I really like to give myself high goals, that I can't seem to ever reach and that depresses me.
Baby steps are key. I need to start setting realistic goals for myself. Mhmmmmmm...

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I am getting so pissed off with trying to get my latest podcasts up. I'm SO SORRY GUYS! I swear I have two wicked podcasts coming up on theoffline.com. Just let me get my foot out of my computer screen and figure it out. Stupid technology, why must you make me so mad?

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I am super tired, but I'm gunna try and stay up for Conan. He makes me dream happy dreams.

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okay, so I love you all. you know who you are.

xo

Wanderlust - Bjork

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 13:47:13 GMT

crazy wicked video and crazy wicked artist.

Remembering How I've Grown...

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 19:16:50 GMT

So like I said in my previous post I used to write poems. Its been a long project in the making, of putting all the paper in order and in a photo book. Some of them are terrible, but some of them got written at just the right moment. So far this one is one of my favorites. I don't even know what I was thinking.

Fly through the barriers
of reality
to find my dimensions.

Swallow the truth and
enjoy the rain.

It soaks my flaws and
washes away memories

of time and space

No longer be human
but remain a single molecule.

Sill able to live
yet, not.

To feel needed
but not feel the need.

November 22 2005
Sinead Stewart
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It almost seems incomplete.

xo

I Used To Write Poems....

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 15:51:10 GMT

and i went through a bunch of them the other day. I was pretty talented for a 13 years old. I wrote over 200 poems that I am putting into a personal book. Isn't weird going back and reading your thoughts and feelings as teenager? I was messed up. hahaha. I'm still messed up. I think I need to get back to writing more and expressing myself through literature. If only to read them when I'm old and realize i am messed up.

I will share them with you soon. I have to find a good one that represents my life now.

I have a weird feeling of something. I can't put my finger on it, but I don't fill good. I'm not sick but I'm not well. I feel like I'm not doing something that I should be doing. Grrr. I kinda feel anxious. Yet, I don't know why.

I got to get ready to go to punkradiocast. Hopefully the drive will clear my head.

I am having terrible dreams. Maybe thats it. My sub conscience is eating my soul.

Its the Weekend!

Fri, 28 Mar 2008 21:23:13 GMT

And I am doing nothing. hahahah
Being broke and creating some art. I wish I had a scanner, all my camera pictures of my drawings turn out like shit.
Anyways, I am really looking foward to the new Cancer Bats CD: Hail Destroyer.

I love the new video, check it:

Sweet.
Liam=Babe

So I had a melt down with my car this week. Lets just say it was just my luck. To break it down: I got a new job at a pub and it was my first shift on Tuesday. I live about ten minutes away so about 15minutes before I;m suppose to go to work I start my car and nothing. No engine turn over, no nothing.

So yes, I hadn't had a oil change for along time after I was suppose to, which would kill my car and my soul. I took a cab to work and my shift went well.

Next day; my baby got towed away.

I called the dealership where it went and "the car started right away" So they said nothing was wrong with the car, I have never felt so happy and stupid all at the same time. So they ended up giving me a new oil change and I was good to go...or so we thought.

I went to pick it up today and the car wouldn't start! So in the end I needed a new starter, oil change and a new horn (which i never even had in the beginning).

Cars are expensive. Freedom is expensive. But fuck, so worth it.

Lesson Learnt.

I hope everyone has a great weekend and drink a few pints for me :)

xo

Hells Yes.

Fri, 28 Mar 2008 04:11:29 GMT

Staying Positive.
Thinking Positive.

Conan O'Brien makes me happy. He's just hurting me with laughter. "STILL NO 3rd ANGEL"
Man, can he tell a story. I hope I can tell a story like Conan can tell a story. It's all about the physical. hahahah (Conans on Jay Leno, the only time I will ever watch Leno.)

Tonight was a good night. I just got in from rocking out to Die Mannequin and Sum 41. There for Die Mannequin, stayed for Sum 41 and getting doobies off minors. haha

Awesome Die Mannequin interview on my next show, as well as a live with Anti-Flag. Eyeahya.

The commercial breaks over. Back to laughter.

Peace Out.

**My Fav Pics from Die Mannequin Show**

I think this is Love...as much as it can be.

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 02:17:31 GMT

I am your typical astrological sign, Cancer. Like the crab I put up a front and don't let people in very easily. Sometimes I try an protect myself by staying "inside my shell" and watch the world pass by without being involved. I am an observer. However; once I come out of my shell and let people see me for the real me, I trust them.

Same with love. I have never been one to be in a very long term relationship, always your single friend, who liked to party (and ya, I still like to party).
Then one day, I gave in. I gave in and gave my heart away, in a way that scared me, a lot. I tried to act like I wasn't totally in love and tried to push those feelings away. If only because I was scared to get hurt. But isn't that what love is? Giving your whole heart and trusting that someone won't break it?

So yes, I have had my heart broken. It fucking hurt. I couldn't breathe and I went back into my shell for a few days, not being "me". But that moment of pure pain was worth those times of pure pleasure. Those times where love was so strong and so real that the world stopped and nothing mattered.

Fuck relationships are hard. I catch myself watching Dr.Phil or some show like that, and see some of these people and the situation they get themselves and I think, not me...never. But it is hard to see yourself for who you are or the relationship your in, because your in it. It's important to take a step back and reevaluate why you are in the relationship in the first place. What gives you butterflies and makes it important to drive out of your way, if only for a kiss good night.

So yeah, I guess what I am saying is, look at yourself and make sure you are living life on your own terms. Being in love is awesome, but make sure it is always for the right reasons.

Your friend,

Sinead

xo

My Favorite Artists

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 23:58:13 GMT

Well, if you know me, you know I'm an artist, who is working on becoming an established tattoo artist. There are so many talented artists out there, its almost overwhelming. I really love color, cartoons and a F*cked up mind. So here are only a few of my favorite artists...

First and foremost has to be the one who has inked my sexy ass half sleeve. His name is Jime Litwalk and this is his website: http://www.jimelitwalk.com

He posted my arm up on his portfolio, and here it is:

**DO NOT COPY MY TATTOO, because I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN AND SKIN YOUR TATTOO OFF AND FEED IT TO STARVING CHILDREN. (thanks!)

It is the most ignorant thing to get someone else's tattoo recreated on yourself. It is also a very low move on the tattoo artists behalf to recreate another tattoo.**

ON WITH THE PROGRAM!

Another wicked artist is JEFF SOTO (http://www.jeffsoto.com/)

And finally, someone who I have admired for a long time; Alex Pardee (http://www.eyesuckink.com/)
He has inspired many works that I have drawn...

So those are a few artist who inspire me :)
I love all of them!

Stay tuned, I will be posting some of my art soon!!

xox